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Lately...I've been feeling a little topsy turvy. (No...not PMS) Wonder why...

It's always the case. Especially when I'm on a long break with nothing to do. Maybe because I've to much free time on my hand and have nothing else to do except let my mind wander everywhere.

I guess I need to get myself occupied till I start work at Grey. This pretty much sucks. I'm kinda feeling a little dready about starting a new job in a new place and also in town.

Honestly...I'm kinda scared...what if they expect too much from me and I can't deliver? What if things really screw up?

Maybe its just me. But when something is bothering me...really bothering me...or when I'm worried about anything...I rather keep it to myself and try not to think about it except when I'm alone.

*HAPPY TOTS!!!*

The new Lotte's Plus X Commercial with Kat-Tun is pretty cute. I just wish I'm in Japan at the moment instead of being here. But me being in Japan is going to make me go really really broke.

Imagine me spending each and every cent I have attending concerts....events...buying stuff...

Johnny is going to be a very rich man I tell you...*not like he's not already!!!*

I want to go to Kat-Tun's concert!!! I want to attend Ryo's solo!!! Jin's solo!!! Orange Range concert!!! Asian Kung-Fu Generation concert!!!

*sob sob*

I'm being very whinny today...woke up on the wrong side of the bed I guess....or maybe I just need more sleep...*sigh*

Since Valentine's is looming close, I would really like to talk about the one single and simple word..."LOVE".

Although I've always believed that Valentine's is overly exploited by the marketers and advertisers to sell their products at ridiculously high prices, a part of me also welcomes Valentines with open arms.

Yup, I've to admit. I'm a sap and a big romantic at heart. Come on...admit it...who doesn't like being pampered and showered with gifts of love ocassionally right?

But is love suppose to be celebrated by only 2 people in love with one another? We somehow forgot that there are other people in our lives that we should never forget during this day.

Couples tend to be so lost in their own world, they've locked others out and cease to exists.

I've come to realize that Valentine is not a day to be celebrated by lovers only. But its a day to celebrate LOVE itself.

Love is a four letter word, so simple yet so great.

Don't we love ourselves? Love our parents? Love our friends? Love our mentor? Love our teachers? Love our pets? ...and the list goes on.

But why do we forget them on Valentines? Why do we only buy cards, flowers, chocolates and gwad knows what other things for our boyfriend/girlfriend and not for other people that we love?

I think over time, we've become selfish with our love. If one would just realize that there is no seperation amongst everyone and that if you love yourself, you're supposed to love everyone including your enemy...somehow or another, the world would be less hateful.

I might be babbling nonsense. Blame it on the lack of sleep. But even after I wake up agian in 9 hours time...I know that on Valentines day...my friends and family...will be recieving a token of love from me.