People Change...

It's amazing how you think you know someone quite well and it turns out to be the total opposite. Feelings of dissapointment surfaces when you finally see the person who had always been a wolf in a sheeps clothing.

You trust this person and you think that you've finally met a one true friend whom you can rely on. Oh BoyYyY....was I ever wrong. It's only recently I've been exposed to such people or should I say person. I knew from the begining that it's wrong to fully trust someone and have been vary about everyone I meet. (Except for a few such as my 3 best girlfriends, Oscar, Liy, Debs and the gang...) Those are the peeps I trust and know will always be there for me thru thick or thin.

As for new found friends....I know there's some who are extremely nice. For instance, I've been recently introduced to 2 new great friends. Pei Tze and Helen.

Friends we can have tons, but quality ones...it's difficult to find.

Recently, I finally truly saw this one friend of mine for who he truly is. I can't lie and say that I don't feel betrayed for the things he told me in the past which was entirely not true. Well...I wouldn't say not it was a lie...but let's just say he was stretching the truth to make himself look good.

Do I look like the type who would judge and hold you guilty to your pass? We live in the present and if he had been honest with me from day 1, I would've been his friend for life. But after what I've heard from others....seen and of course felt, the only thing I can do is avoid him.

I hate it when a guy throws tantrums or start acting weird just because they want us to actually go to them and try to pacify them. That's silly. Sometimes, I really want to shout at him to stop acting so weird and think he's all that.

Hell yeah...I'm annoyed. Why? Because it's obvious he's going to loose tons of great friends if he continues to act this way. He's going to loose friends that are true and will always be there for him and get blinded by those who has money and tolerate all his nonsens for a certain reason.

Ah....screw it...I can't be bothered. People change. True to that...but if someone changes for the better, at least that's an achievement. Now...if someone changes for the worst and not realize it...that's denial. Maybe I can honestly say....changing into something worst is one of the biggest failure in life. Instead of going forward, you've taken a step backward.

I don't usually complaint. Only to those who I truly feel I can trust. One of them...Oscar. I was telling him about this particular friend of mine and he said, "You know what Amy? I didn't want to tell you at first, but I never did like him the first time I saw him. But I didn't want to tell you because he was your friend."

Great...why is it that all my friends are a better judge of people than I am? That's why I always say, I only attract psychos and weirdos.

Sometimes, when I see him, all I really want to do is tell him in his face what I think about him. I don't really care if he hates me after that. At least someone did try to make him realize his mistakes right? But...I've decided agianst that. I shall just keep quiet. It's none of my business if he wants to fall of that particular cliff.

You want to know if you're successfull in life? No...it's not the amount of money you have in the bank, nor how many party invitations you recieve daily. It's how many people who really sticks by you and love you for who you really are. It's the amount of people who truly believes in you.

I don't need 100 friends....I only need 1 true friend.

Prince Charming....

Amy's Back in the HOUSE!!!!

Today...I'm going to talk about soul mates. Wonder what trigger this subject? I don't know....I've nothing else better to write about. HAHAHAAH....

You know what they say...there's someone for everyone. That one person that you're destined to be with. Okay, you've watched movies like 'Serendipity' and all those lovey dovey chick-flick that goes planting all those cheesy-romantic things in our brains. But does it really exists?

We can never define love. Then how do we know if we've ever been in love? It can merely be a huge crush, lust or attraction. But really...how on earth are we suppose to know that we're in love with this one person?

Sweaty palms, butterflies in tummy, you get tongue tied? Isn't that just all a nervous reaction? I get that when I'm sitting for a blardy important exam!!! Does that mean I'm in love with my exam paper?

But...when I see some people, telling me so confidently they've found my soul mate, it makes me curious. Curious to actually know if their so-called soul mate will actually last forever. It's funny how after maybe a few years and they've a falling out, their soul-mate will turn out into their worst nightmare. Okay, its cruel to laugh but....if only I had a tape recorder and tape every single words they said to me about him/her being perfect and so on. Suddenly, that perfect person is this monster they want to kill and smash and see them suffer. Is that what you call a soul mate?

Like just the other day, I was having dinner with Eva and Andrew. First, let me just say that Andrew looks like a frog. I'm not being mean here....Eva said so herself. He isn't excatly prince charming. He's more like.....Quasimodo from The Hunchback of Notre Dame. She said, "I never in a million years imagine myself marrying a man like him. So ugly....." of course after she said that, I burst into a fit of giggles because Andrew pretended to look hurt.

Eva continued, "When I was young, I always dream of having at least a decent looking man. I know dreaming of a handsome one is almost impossible, but all I ask for is someone DECENT...in the end...I get this...but...I love him...and I've never been more grateful in my life to find someone who loves me like he does."

They met in a very very fairytale like way. She's from China, he's from Malaysia. Boy meets girl in Shanghai while walking on the street, falls in love at first sight, follows girl right to the mall only to almost get caught by a security guard for stalking girl. Well...you get the idea. Eva said, she actually fell in love with him when she fell so sick and was admitted to hospital. Andrew flew all the way from Malaysia, to Shanghai and took care of her for almost 2 weeks. Staying by her side.

HmMMm...wait...is that LOVE or was it Gratitude?

I'm sure when we're young, we've always imagine this perfect scenerio on how we'll fall in love. How we'll meet our Prince Charming and also have some sort of criteria he has to at least fill up. Tall, dark, handsome...get my point?

But does it really exists? We go through life after that in search for that perfect person....only to get dissapointed in the end coz that 'perfect person' doesn't exists. What exists is the harsh reality of life. Prince Charming isn't tall, dark or even handsome. In fact, as we hit a certain age, we don't want Prince Charming anymore. We want....that one person who can give us security and support us for the rest of our lives.

Then....our dreams and fantasy shall just vanish into thin air. *POoF* just like the wind, our hopes and nightly dreams when we're young are gone!

Maybe that's why most of us don't end up finding the guys of our dreams. Because we either put our standards up too high. Maybe because we want these 'real people' fit the criteria of our 'Prince'.

It's really sad...that most people think that Prince Charming still exists....ah well...REALITY BITES.